Tuesday, July 29, 2003
today i am. in. a bad mood. it didn't help that the day kicked off with another session of mass dance. where we did the loved-by-many nan zhong quan. hello?! it's a total waste of time. yeah i'm total going to become so fit and healthy by learning wushu! i'm totally going to be so united with the rest of my schoolmates through punching the air. then it was clh's lesson.seeing her face makes me wanna puke. pukepukepuke. she keeps insisting that burger is an adjective and joint is the noun. then european is an adjective and boutiques is the noun. whatever. lynette poh didn't come tody. then we were supposed to do our sci poster thing but in the end we didn't get anything done. what a freaking waste of time. then for home econs even worse. shirley wong was bitching around about the coursework. i think she used the term 'i don't have to spoonfeed you' and 'you aer big girls already'. i hate it when people say that. the worse thing is that she only dragged the leaders out to scold.then it was like. i was sitting at the backrow and i still could hear her scolding lor. damn her. she think her figure so nice can attract all the male teacher's attention then she dman big lor. the she scoldscold and gave the fantastic plan for everyone to follow so that we would have no time for absolutely anything else. after that she left all the leaders feeling soo stressed out and everything. xinwei was like giving out work to everyone and i'm sorry to say i was already in a very bad mood because of something dot did. so we were not verry cooperative. maybe it was becuase i was too pissed with shirley wong. yeah, home econs totally rocks! i totally want to devote all my time to it lor miss wong. whatever lah. i was in bad mood for the whole day. like hcl ying yong wen test was so difficult. then for somew eird reason lxh kept looking at me. assembly was a drag and they just kept talking and talking and were were all sitting down there biting our nails or fiddling with everything we could get our hands on and trying to appear interested. after school we had to go see the specialist again. so boring lorh. i had to waid so freaking long. by the time i was actually done at the specialists it was 5+. i reached there at 3. then i had to rush over to xw's house to bake cookies for weitze's farewell party. the cookies are nice. when i when home i found out my younger sis had been digging into my belongings and found my spiderweb pens which was a christmas present from my parents from the states. were missing. fantastic. i flipped open her drawing book and foun her scrawlings all over the place. with my pens.you could say that i was pissed. but when i went out and demanded a confession from my sister..
"what pens?" with a defiant look.
i was like, my pens? this one? i practically poked her eyeballs with the single pen i found.
"I WHERE GOT TAKE?"
i was halfconvinced and was almost sorry. bu i do'nt knw. results of a bad mood and a bad day = "you DID. you want me to show you the proof?"
then she was like "YAHHHH" so i was like okay then i dragged her off to the room and almost shoved the book in her face and her expression was still the same.
then i was like, "yeah so where are they?"
"on the bed lah!" with the exacttt same defiant expression, not a single sign of remorse. i was freaking pissed at this point. HELLO?! what's wrong with this spoilt brat. not only you have to dig into my things without my permission. using my things and throwing them all over the place, you have to LIE to me and PRETEND you didn't knw anything and THINK i was stupid enough to let you simply take my things and lose them. so. i tore her papers up. in front of her face. still wearing that same expression, she was like "tear lor! i don't care" then she went out.
fine, she doesn't care does she ? then i tore up her winnie the pooh and tigger cover. it was quite a release of frustration!
but after that i started to feel bad. okay, so maybe that was a kind of bitchy thing to do. and a stupid thing, considering that i was trying to be nice to hr for once. but can't she give a little respect? if she doesn't respect me how could i ever respect her. and the winnie the pooh cover was was lovely cover. i know cos i drewit out bfore. yeah then i start tothink how mad i would be if my sister tore up my drwaings. okayy. i felt even worse.maybe my bitchy moment is over. if only my older sister would quit asking me to get off the computer.
i have every right to access this computer. she can't just chase me off whenever she wants to. i already let her use this computer most of the time. i figure she thinks the same thing. who knows.
i hv to do the home econs now. but it's already quite late and i aim to be in bed by9.30everyday. plu si hv to reach sch extra early to do the hist project and the ipw.
byyebyee.
someone is going "i want to use the computer" agian.


|deborah| 10:23 PM|

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